1.17.2009

tired...

the past week has been a long week for me..


i started my orientation last week..for two days all we did was paper works..then wednesday till friday i was oriented on the floor..being a nurse is not easy specially if you don't know the patients..it took me a while to absorb everything.. as what my preceptors told me, nursing is a continous learning process..i had fun during those days..starting monday, magiisa na ako sa floor..bahala na si Lord...

sabi nga nila, pag maganda ang career ng isang tao di naman maganda ang lovelife nya..we had problems this past week..we never argue na for a while..i think it's been a year since our last arguement..bigla nalang akong napauno sa kanya..ako kasi ung tipo ng tao na mahaba ang pasensya..hangang kaya ko di ako magsasalita..pero last wednesday napuno na ako sobra..di ko alam pano nangyari basta ang alam ko umiiyak nalang ako habang nagsasabi ng sama ng loob..alam ko i was so busy last week with my career but God knows im trying to have time with him..kahit anung pagod ko i'll see to it na nagkita kmi or magkwentuhan sa phone..i never forget to call him..but he's being inconsiderate and insensitive...infairness to him he's supportive naman sa new career ko..lagi nyang sinasabi na he's okay but he's telling me that in a sarcastic way..i confronted him then next thing i know nagaaway na kmi..till now, magulo parin kmi..malumanay na kami pareho pero parang may malaking wall parin between us..kakapagod na ung ganito..minsan naiisip ko mahal ko pa ba sha o nasanay nalang akong anjan sha??..i asked him if he still love me coz feeling ko ayaw na nya and he's just waiting me na maginitiate so that what i did..if ever na sabihin nya na di na nya ako mahal, then it's over..he told na me he still love me and he love me more each day..pero bakit ganun sha..i can't understand him anymore..last year we broke up but after couple of days nagkabalikan din kami..ayokong mauwi sa hiwalayan ito ulit pero nasstress na ako..

hopefully everything will be okay..sinubukan ko ng gawin lahat..ilang araw na din ako nagdadrama magisa..


Napapagod ba talaga ang puso??
anu gagawin nyo kung pagod na talaga??




8 loves me:

PaJAY said...

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.

goodluck sa lovlyf Lov-a-lot..
smile lang ng smile...

The Gasoline Dude said...

Mag-usap kayo ng maayos. Mahirap kasi 'yung puro assumptions lang without confirming anything. Been there, done that. Good luck!

lhay said...

speak out gurl, tell him how you feel....and be your self... you can do it, gurl power!!! ;)

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a.r.d.y.e.y. said...

ayokong maging nega pero alam mo bang karamihan ng kakilala ko ay nagbreak sa kani-kanilang partners nung magtrabaho na yung isa at nakahanap ng love interest sa pinapasukang work?

sana di mangyari sa inyo. hehehe. relak relak lang. ganyan talaga pag bago sa trabaho nakakastress.

p0kw4ng said...

pag aralan mong mabuti ang situation nyo...baka naman usap lang ng masinsinan ang katapat nyan tapos isip ka na ng isip ng negative!

alam mo para sa akin ang hirap nong tanong na kung mahal mo pa sya o nasanay ka lang na nandyan sya sa paligid..kakalito ano?

wag mag alala kung talaga namang kayo para sa isa't isa kayo talaga kahit anong mangyari db?

cheer up lov!

lovalot said...

PAJAY: salamat!!!im not sure if im strong enough to let go..

GASUL: Salamat din..ayaw nya kasi ng confrontation..he hates it..gusto nya palipasin nalang then as if nothing happend..

LHAY: mahirap magsalita kung ayaw makinig..its useless..salamat po!!

ATe POKS: musta bansa ni hitler? gaya nga ng sinabi ko mahirap makipagusap sa taong aywa magopen up.ako lang ang dal dal ng dal dal..ayaw nya ng confrontation..tapos the next day parang walang ngyari..grrr...ingat ka jan!!

ARDYEY: hay naku that happened to us..may naging co worker ako na naging (sort of) boylet ko..he knows that..un nga ung time na narealize ko na mahal ko talaga sha..salamat po!!!

Cutter Pilar said...

napapagod ang puso pero lahat maidadaan sa usapan... that's what we do, over and over... kahit na parang feeling mo na parang nagsasawa ka na, minsan kailangan lang tayong katukin sa puso... pero everything madadaan sa usapan... sana maayos nyo yan.. :)

 
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