dooonut bai

grabe this past week i was so low..feeling ko may seasonal affective disorder na ako..or siguro because of holiday blues..di naman sa ayoko ng christmas it's just that i'm not into it tulad ng ibang people..i don't know..maybe because of my childhood kaya ganun..i never experienced celebrating holiday with a complete family..i was 2 years old nung nagabroad na daddy ko..it was my childhood wish na mabuo kami pro hanggang ngayon unfortunately di pa din natupad hanggang sa naggive up na ako..siguro God has a better plan for all of us..anyway, dahil sa kapraningan ko this past days nagaway kmi ni boyplen nung friday..nagkataon na mainit ulo nya at nagiinarte ako..ayun ang end up "away"..nagwalk out sha without saying a word..wala na akong nagawa kundi umiyak..then saturday morning nagtext sha:

PAT: =)
LoV: morning!
PAT: sori po
LoV: for what? (patay malisya kunyari)
PAT: for walking out, for being immature..
LoV: ah ok..ayus lang un..(wala talaga ako sa mood makipagtext)
PAT: u want to eat out
LoV: no thanks..(alam nya na lumalambot puso ko basta may food pero this time deadma ako)

then di na sha nagreply..so deadma na ako..i just stayed the whole day sa bahay..he'll call me once in while to check if im okay..sinasagot ko naman..then sunday came nagchurch ako ng morning (oo magisa lang ako nagsimba..ayoko ng may kasama that day..praning talaga ako)..paguwi ko may krispy kreme donut sa dining table ko then my note..(di ko mahanap USB ng cam ko kaya di ko maupload ung pic ng note)..sabi sa note:

LoV,
i'm sorry..bati na tyo..donuts for my baby...
love you so much..
Pat

alam nya na fave ko krispy kreme, ewan ko ba biglang lumambot puso ko..parang nakalimutan ko lahat ng kapraningan ko..narealize ko na OA na ako..nadadamay na ibang tao..i called him to say sorry..tapos habang kausap ko sha may nag knock sa door ko..sha pala..di pa sha umuwi..nakapark lang sha malapit samin..hinihintay talaga tawag ko..i just hugged him tight..bigla ko shang namiss..i asked him kung gaano nya ako kamahal..he said "imagine mo na umuulan then saluhin mo ung rain ng kamay mo..ung mga hindi mo masasalo ganun kita kamahal"..kinilig naman ako..this past day sha ung pinaka naapektuhan sa attitude ko..i hope this coming week will be a better week..

i just realized one thing ...damn!!donut lang pala katapat ko!!